high heels down river beds

we fear the end.

so instead, while we can, we chase after eternity; that which never ends.

the promise of always having a tomorrow? what a cruel joke we play on ourselves.

we've become dangerously obsessed with living forever, as we mercilessly fight the call of mother nature.

time; she carries me down the rivers edge as I watch high heels laid to rest at the bottom of the river bed.

I find myself reflecting on memories when eternity felt within reach.

remember those days when the sun rose before we wanted the night to end? or when our feet bled from dancing for hours, while we sang at the top of our lungs, in those high heels we only wore once? or when the DJ kept playing "just one more song" until they turned the lights on and kicked us out?

these were the moments when my age or timeline didn't scream for my attention.

these were the times that for a fleeting second, I momentarily reached eternity; experiencing only euphoric joy.

but then reality sets in and I turn to watch the clock continue to tick.

so I find myself chasing moments where I feel completely free.

I so badly wish time was an illusion. but reality is anything but a dream.

If only I could add a little more time to my river ride.

but the current remains steady; unrelenting in pulling us along.

my only hope is that I hear the name mom before eternity buries my high heels in river beds.

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